It's been awhile since I've been able to write anything. Quite a lot has been happening! First stressful thing is we are looking into buying an investment property (condo) but apparently loan officers get paid hourly wage and not by how much work they do since we can't ever seem to get a hold of them....EVER!
Next new toy we just got is the new Asus G75 from best buy and I am sooo excited about it (I am writing this blog on it right now!) It runs all games that we've tried so far on ULTRA settings, yay! So besides not having a proper working laptop until this week....Diablo 3 has been pretty distracting as well! All my world of warcraft friends have been diablo addicts! I got to ride the bike last friday, I didn't film any footage because I've been wanting to just really break into riding without any added obligations.
To be totally honest I've been having some anxiety with riding lately. I don't think I ever mentioned on the Youtube channel yet, but I am a dancer, and at times I get a big mental block when I get on the FZ6R, it's always in the back of my mind "If I get hurt again..." I've been through it once and I never want to go through that again, but I don't want to live my life paralyzed by fear. In fact I refuse to, but sometimes I admit it overcomes me and I just choose not to ride that day and hope that the next day it will pass. Each time I get on that bike I know the risks, and I get butterflies in my stomach, and sometimes I just can't get myself past that block, and other times I find my strength and just say "fuck it!!!" and live life the way "I" want to. I think it's something I am always going to deal with, but I am hoping that the more I ride the more it will become second nature, and I will be able to handle my emotions better.
Tonight at the gym I sprung an idea for my Youtube channel that I've been thinking about for a really really long time and I finally feel like I am ready to do it starting this weekend. I am going to start a series of video's that talk about, and show others how to deal with living through a broken leg, the mental stress of it, and the actual rehab that I did to get to where I am now, and show video's of how far I have come in the last 3 1/2 years. I hope to maybe be able to help other riders who have gone through a broken leg or ARE going through it, to help them realize that you can come back from it, and you can get back on a bike and make it an experience that makes you stronger, and not something that you look back in with regret. I will do a riding video this weekend hopefully it wont be too warm, it will probably just be a video with music though, and I am sure I am going to get slapped with a youtube music warning LOL cause I can't stand them telling me I can't use certain music!!!!
I hope everyone is riding safe, and livng life to the fullest!!!!
....back to playing my games!!! :)
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